What do I do, I am scared?

honey, you need to get the courage to leave him. if you have kids, take them with you. no one should live in fear especially living in the same house. perhaps, you can plan to leave. get some money together and stash it in a bank deposit account. leave the paper work with a family member. do you have some training, education or some other means to support yourself and kids (if any). if not, get out anyways. some people won’t leave because they have property. you can always get that. talk to your therapist on how to get away. it seems to me, that your therapist is patient with getting what owed because of the situation you’re in. it was a mistake in calling him. but then again, after over 4 years, it doesn’t seem she is helpful. i will say it again, you need to get away from him. she may know some people who can help you escape. do some networking. if you do have kids, then it is your responsibility to protect them, physically, mentally and emotionally. they did not ask to be born. you need to do right by them. your kids may grow up to be just like you and your husband. a lot of woman stay in the same situation because of financial reasons (ie: supporting one's self and kids). some are in a state of "frozen animation." at least, i felt that way. once independent, having work skills, i didn't know how to leave him. he was not a bad person, either. it took me time to get up the courage to do so. you have a more pressing reason to get out of that situation. please do it. good luck.